was a tough decision indeed..

There was a 50% probability that I was going to take a year drop, as I didn't write my iit-jee exam that well. after finishing my jee and aieee exams I was just chilling at home and counting the days left before it is MAY 30 , though i was still to write BITSAT exam. The results of IIT-JEE exam were to be announced on MAY 30. As the time went curiosity increased simultaneously.

MAY 29, 10:30 p.m
I boarded the train for Visakhapatnam, an overnight away from my home. BITSAT exam was the reason I was going to vizag again, I mean I did my high school from vizag itself. But while leaving vizag I decided not to see the bloody Sri Chaitanya again and I would have made my promise true if those bloody people would have sent the mark sheet by post. The life in Sri Chaitanya was just like hell. Not many can survive in such worse condition.

Chandu and abhishek 2 of my best buddies were accompanying me to vizag, while abhishek was also writing bitsat exam chandu just came for fun. That particular night was one of d longest night of my life. Sleep was nowhere near my eyes, and the thought of the jee results came every next second to my mind wondering - I will or I will not. Finally the long night passed and it was already 8:00 am, vizag was still half an hour away. My curiosity was at its peak and the heart beat was exponentially increasing as vizag was coming nearer. I just ran away to the S.T.D booth at platform no.1 as soon as we boarded off the train at around 8:35 or so. But my curiosity further increased when my dad told that the web page of jee is showing an error. I just relaxed for some time and tried to call again after 4-5 minutes, an excited voice of my father said "congratulations u are selected”. But just selection was not enough what all matter was the rank secured by you which decides the chances of admission of in iits. And as expected my rank was not that good to get a decent branch in any of the iits .

I spoiled whole day in thinking about my rank , a 4k odd rank that too after a 2 year of preparation was bad enough . It was sure that I m gonna spoil the bitsat exam due to these tensions and it happened in the same way . iit and bitsat were too heavy to handle , meanwhile someone called from my home informing my aieee rank . of course the rank was nowhere near to my expectations it was also a poor 4k odd rank though I expected a decent rank around 1000 . now it was one of the most fucking days of my life , 3 bad news in a row was too much to be handled .

some how I got convinced to attend all the counseling and take admission in any iits , it-bhu if I m getting any branch at my rank . parallely my mindset was made to join nit-Warangal in case I don't get a seat in iits . days passed and I slowly forgot my aim to join iit only , as forcefully a positive thinking towards nits were fed in ma mind by family and friends .

June was about to end I had my first counseling session on 22nd June 07 for admissions in iits , it-bhu , ismu dhanbad . iit madras was my counseling centre as vizag stands under madras zone. There was hardly a 10% chance of getting any stream in any of d iit's, so I thought of joining NIT Warangal. And the result of the first counseling was declared on 29th June....the air in my home was pretty tensed as I got "MINING ENGINEERING" in IT-BHU (though the college was a reputed one but the branch ..one would never like to join)..so wat next was the question in ma mind...

I called lokesh (a gud frnd of mine from ma coaching days...) to ask wat he gonna do . He was pretty sure of joining some college through AIEEE . Our conversation came to an end with a conclusion to join NIT Warangal and prepare for IIT-JEE . I told everyone about my plans .. though few members were in favour of IT-BHU but joining NIT rather than "mining" in IT-BHU was a much better decision , and many seniors and few other IITians agreed to my decision...

JUNE 30th 2007 7:30 p.m..(one of the most important day of my life..)
Having decided to join NIT Warangal I was pretty relaxed and was just doing orkutting in a CAFE in MAHASAMUND (home town)..and then happened the most important thing in my life...I told ma decision of not dropping a year and joining NIT to kaustubh bhaiya ( IIT Kanpur student..)..he just scolded me " ki pagal ho gaya hai kya ...waha padh nahi paayega ragging hoti hai , padhna hota hai 1st yr ka, time nahi milega........".It was a kind of brain wash for me , and without wasting a minute I opened the websites of "bansal classes , resonance , career point " ( the 3 major coaching institutes in kota)..while resonance and c.p were giving a healthy 90% off ,bansal just offered a concession of 25%..For me resonance was the best deal to gamble with ..as it was 2nd only to bansal and was giving 90% off in fees..without consulting any 1 in home I made a strong ( and tough) decision to join resonance..

I left the cafe and headed towards home with just one thought in my mind ..IIT and resonance . I even didn’t notice when the rain started and I unwillingly took a bath in the rain...

JUNE 30th 2007 9:00 p.m..
Once again the scene inside my home was not that jolly , as I told them about my decision which gave them an obvious shock . I was tried to convince by everyone ( telling all sorts of disadvantages of taking a drop n all ) to change ma decision but as I was pretty "jiddi" so I didn’t .Actually the problem in convincing my family were "EXTRAS"(people who wud never encourage you to take these type of decisions) who just say all sorts of nonsense and try to teach only the disadvantages of taking a drop. Even I got nervous for a while but the thought of IIT again made me enthusiastic....After convincing rather forcing everyone to accept , the other big problem was..classes were just about to begin from 2nd July...and it was already 30th. how to manage everything , rehne khaane ka thikaana ..and many more things .

""But i want to make a point here that my family always supported me with all my decisions (though they got afraid initially due to those "EXTRAS")and without their support it was nothing less than climbing everest . I am really thankful to them""

While I was in a favour of going d next day itself , but then I agreed to leave on 1st ....and I called chandu ( one of my close frnd) to book a ticket to kota. I knew I won’t get a confirm ticket , so I decided to go alone . as my room was booked in a good hostel ( after much efforts of siddh and other frnds though) it was no big deal to go alone (I felt). but u can say everything was in my opposition , the train in which I was supposed to go up to BINA was running about 12 hrs late . so the arrival time of train changed from 3:00 pm to 3:00 am . but we all got some relief when we saw tushar ( a good frnd of mine) was going to Bhopal along with his family , and they had 3 confirm tickets .

So it was a peaceful journey till Bhopal , tushar and his family boarded off at Bhopal . I was to board my train from bina at 9:00 pm , though I had almost 13hrs free I in bina when I planned my journey . but due to the fact that train was running late I reached bina station just 15-20 mins before the departure of my next train...

now here comes something irritating but adventurous too. my waiting list stooped at 3 and I could not get a birth . as it was a passenger train it just had a single reservation coach , in that circumstance fighting for a berth was waste . so I decided to somehow pass the night . But as it was a peak season the coach was over crowded . forget about getting a birth I had to keep my luggage in 3 different places ( because of short of place ) . somehow after adjusting my luggage slept on the floor , as it was an overnight journey and I was pretty much tired to remain awake all the night...

4:00am 2nd JULY 2007...
though u all will wonder if I am joking but I am not....somehow I got awake from my deep sleep ( due to crowd probably ) and u all will not believe that the train was at a halt but guess where.........ya KOTA junction ....for a second I just could not believe it .. but I ran and packed my things and collected all my luggage ( from 3 different places ) and just boarded off the train as early as I could....after getting normal , I called SIIDDH and enquired where to come . it took about half an hour to reach the place where siddh was waiting for me ....
to be continued..........

I hope u liked my experiences , as this is my first blog it would be very irritating for u all to bear wid it....

but all ur comments gud or bad are most welcome....